Never Surrender

I’m on a quest.

Or so it seems. I have always viewed myself as a “creative” and have always leaned towards the arts. Mostly visual arts, especially cartoons. I set out to be the next Charles Schulz in 8th grade. That was in 1983ish. I did not get there. A lot of life got in the way.

And that’s ok. I have accepted the detours and I took and I am still working on it, to some degree. I post art work (mostly cartoons) at more than have posted here in the last couple of years.

And I have a book to finish. I have a business idea brewing with my wife that is in its infancy. I have things I want to accomplish and it feels like I have sooo little time to get to any of them.

But I am working on that. Its going to take motivation and drive and determination to carve out my niche and find people who like what I do, hopefully purchase my book and art work that will arrive later this year. (Personal goal) … I also hope my two children take something away from this process. They were all of 7 and 3 years old respectively when I had cancer in ’06-07. They have seen our struggles as a family and how my wife and I have done all that we could with what we had.

I would hope perhaps above all else, that my kids see that you never stop trying. You never take failure personally. You always get up when you’ve been knocked down and you take another shot.

I may not have made it as a professional cartoonist (yet) and may never write a New York Times best seller. But I am bound and determined to finish writing my book and get it electronically published by the end of this year. If that means I have to say “No” to some things, people and/or events to accomplish that, then is what I will do.

But I want my kids to see that I didn’t give up. Not when the cancer showed up, not when the condo association sued us out of our home, not when I lost yet another job in this shitty economy.

I never gave up.

“Never Surrender”

Be well.



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Quit talking…

’nuff said? I think so.

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Happy new year, You’re Fired!

Happy New Year! “you’re fired!”

Yep. Just 9 short days into the new year and I was unceremoniously let go.

I saw it coming 2.5 months ago…still sucks either way. I have not been the most optimistic person you will ever meet, but since last Thursday I’m not really all that pissed off. And I’m not sulking about it. I didn’t belong in that field and only took the position I did back in 2012 to stabilize health insurance for me and my family. (which we hardly used or needed in that time frame)… I suppose we’ll be a candidate for Obamacare now?

So here I am, unemployed yet again. With an unfinished book and semi-irregular although self imposed cartooning plans and deadlines for my EbzArt blog still brewing beneath the surface.

The extra time I now have (in-between job searching of course) will be balanced with writing, walking, cleaning and reading.

I am adopting James Altucher’s “Daily Practice” and will further develop the Mental, Physical, Spiritual and Emotional parts of my well being and keep moving forward.

I am learning to breathe and I am accepting that everything takes time.

After being exposed to some of the most negative people I have ever worked with in my life, I am actually feeling optimistic about opportunities ahead of me and making my own way and the personal progress I have already achieved thus far with EbzART and my hopes to expand on things this year. New projects and ideas are still being worked on.

I also decided 2014 was… is my No Excuses year to finish my book and if all goes well self publish it before years end. I am being realistic about time frames and my own limitations. Its taken me 7 years to get this far…I am in no hurry to just sprint to the finish.

So as 2014 is hardly two weeks old I start the year off behind the 8 ball, I am strangely comfortable in my own skin and really feel like I can do this optimism thing after all.

Be well.
To be continued…

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2014 Goal…

7 years ago (Dec 2006) I was diagnosed with Renal cell carcinoma AND stage 2 Hodgkin’s Lymphoma.

I have been in remission since May of 2007.

Everyone who has heard me tell my story has said I should write a book. I somehow put enough words together to create a manuscript and I started editing it sometime in ’12 and in ’13. But I always stall, lose focus, start cartooning…watching TV, check Facebook or something else and I still only have a manuscript.

I also set out in 2012 to cartoon full time and I have more or less accomplished that. I have posted a respectable amount of work since March 2012. But the book always gets put on the back burner.

One thing I have learned about myself having embarked on that journey is that I actually did accomplish what I set out to do. That being said, the slacker kid inside of me was surprised by that.

So as 2014 begins I am setting another benchmark for myself…to officially finish writing the book and seek publishing by years end if not sooner.

Some how I set my course when I surrendered to my need to create versus my issues with perfectionism. And amazingly creating Won! I was and still am very happy with that.

I will finish writing (editing/rewriting) my book. This isn’t a resolution, just a plan and a goal I know I can achieve, because I did the same thing publishing my cartoons and other random artwork over the last year and a half.

It has to be completed and it has to ship. That is my plan. That is what I will be working on this year. No if, ands or buts!

I would love to have completed this by my 45th birthday this October. That would be a nice birthday present to myself. (note to self)

I hope to keep both blogs busy this year and of course…FINISH THE BOOK.

What are you planning to do this year?

Whatever it is…You can do it, if you set your mind to it.

Be well.

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Happy 2014

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